This was a good one!! Let me set the scene: Infertile couple (us) feeling lonely and isolated in the middle of our infertile hell decide to go to a friend's BBQ the night before. Couple has a fantastic time, meets another great couple same age, similar interests, no kids, who were lots of fun! Things were starting to looking up. Fast-forward to today i.e. April fool's day. All new friends go out to lunch and here it comes... are you ready... of course she is pregnant. April fools!!! We actually thought we could have a new set of great friends to have a good time with and not have to deal with IF all the time. What a silly silly girl I was to think that we could get out of this that easy. Now they are relegated to the group of people I might be able to spend time with again if this ever works. It is hard enough to deal with a pregnancy of a good friend let alone people we just met.
I made it through the lunch and just got to my car before the ugly crying started. I am so angry and bitter these days. I was hoping to get back to a better place and I felt like we were really getting there. I feel pathetic that something so small could be my undoing these days. April fools!
not cool. I am sorry you thought you had found some "safe" friends and now they are going to want to talk baby :(
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry :( it sucks to never be able to get away from it. It hurts to hang out with them and play happy but then it's hard too to feel like you've pulled away and are alone. There is no good place.
ReplyDeleteI know that bitter feeling all to well. Keep your head up!
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