Yet another reason I love Mr. Scuba:
This is the text I got from him this morning
"Your estrogen starts today right? Let me know how it makes you feel and if I need to pick anything up for you on the way home OK"
He is so incredibly sweet and supportive. I couldn't make it through this without him!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Saturday, January 28, 2012
The Condom Broke!!
Baseline was yesterday and the condom for the vag-cam broke!! It happened before it was used though, so we all laughed and decided that was a good sign.
Everything looked good so we are on our way. Now if I could only figure out how to get rid of these Lupron headaches...
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Grounded and Hopeful
Our FET (frozen embryo transfer) is underway and Mr. Scuba is coming home soon!
For our cycle, I started Lupron a few days ago. Up until then I was pretty sure we would have to postpone the cycle. I had been having horrible horrible sinus headaches which most doctors I talked to believed were sinus infections. I went through 2 courses of antibiotics and nothing worked. I thought for sure we would have to postpone until I got through this. Finally, I got to see my ENT doc and he told me the craziest thing. He said that he sees a lot of women with sinus problems that are otherwise under control go crazy when doing IVF. He said that the sinus tissue is extremely sensitive to hormone fluctuations especially estrogen, progesterone, and testosterone. When the body goes through the crazy hormone stimulations for IVF, the sinuses can go crazy causing a lot of pressure and pain especially for someone with already sensitive sinuses. So, the good news is I have an answer and it's not infection, he even scoped me to make sure. The bad news is, the treatment is to deal with it. Well, if I don't have to postpone my cycle, I can do that. It's just one more way infertility fucks with my life.
In other wonderful news, Mr. Scuba is finally coming home tomorrow!!!! He has been in the frosty great white north for a couple of weeks for work. He said it was -40 degrees there for one day. I wonder if he is trying to get an idea of how our frosties feel! As empathetic as he may be getting, I am so excited for him to finally be home. It is so hard when he is away. So much happens that I want to talk to him about and have him be a part of. We can barely even talk on the phone because of the increased international charges. Most of our conversations have been through text and that is getting a little old.
So this cycle is starting and my wonderful husband is coming home. All of this is making me feel more grounded and I am finally starting to feel hopeful again. Having hope this time around seems like a much greater task. Being grounded seems much easier, but I do have hope. I have so much hope that one of our 4 little snowbabies is going to be our take home baby!
For our cycle, I started Lupron a few days ago. Up until then I was pretty sure we would have to postpone the cycle. I had been having horrible horrible sinus headaches which most doctors I talked to believed were sinus infections. I went through 2 courses of antibiotics and nothing worked. I thought for sure we would have to postpone until I got through this. Finally, I got to see my ENT doc and he told me the craziest thing. He said that he sees a lot of women with sinus problems that are otherwise under control go crazy when doing IVF. He said that the sinus tissue is extremely sensitive to hormone fluctuations especially estrogen, progesterone, and testosterone. When the body goes through the crazy hormone stimulations for IVF, the sinuses can go crazy causing a lot of pressure and pain especially for someone with already sensitive sinuses. So, the good news is I have an answer and it's not infection, he even scoped me to make sure. The bad news is, the treatment is to deal with it. Well, if I don't have to postpone my cycle, I can do that. It's just one more way infertility fucks with my life.
In other wonderful news, Mr. Scuba is finally coming home tomorrow!!!! He has been in the frosty great white north for a couple of weeks for work. He said it was -40 degrees there for one day. I wonder if he is trying to get an idea of how our frosties feel! As empathetic as he may be getting, I am so excited for him to finally be home. It is so hard when he is away. So much happens that I want to talk to him about and have him be a part of. We can barely even talk on the phone because of the increased international charges. Most of our conversations have been through text and that is getting a little old.
So this cycle is starting and my wonderful husband is coming home. All of this is making me feel more grounded and I am finally starting to feel hopeful again. Having hope this time around seems like a much greater task. Being grounded seems much easier, but I do have hope. I have so much hope that one of our 4 little snowbabies is going to be our take home baby!
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Our Year for Victory
Exactly a year ago, I was cursing the world for letting me ovulate on Christmas day and not get pregnant. I mean how could I not get pregnant after ovulating for Christmas, really? That was they day when we unknowingly got in the cue line for the biggest roller coaster I have ever been on.
Irony of all irony I got the same christmas present this year as I did last year. Thankfully I had the experience to know that ovulating Christmas day meant exactly nothing except my period would start soon. I knew that the world loves it's cruel jokes. This year however I had a different perspective. This year my period showing up meant that we get to start our frozen embryo transfer cycle!!
I start birth control pills today, then will start lupron January 16th, baseline will be January 25th, and our target transfer day will be February 16th.
I am so excited, but I am so unbelievably nervous. I think I am more nervous about this cycle than our last cycle. This time if it doesn't work, we are back to another fresh cycle and I am not sure when we could afford that for both emotional and financial reasons. There is a lot of pressure riding on those 4 little frozen snow babies.
So I am back to blogging and I am going to more active on the Bump again. I missed you all and I am looking forward to catching up.
Last year was a year of discovery, pain, standing strong, and being hopeful against all odds. This year I am praying for a year of hope, chances, grace, and victory. Good bye 2011, Here's to 2012!!
Irony of all irony I got the same christmas present this year as I did last year. Thankfully I had the experience to know that ovulating Christmas day meant exactly nothing except my period would start soon. I knew that the world loves it's cruel jokes. This year however I had a different perspective. This year my period showing up meant that we get to start our frozen embryo transfer cycle!!
I start birth control pills today, then will start lupron January 16th, baseline will be January 25th, and our target transfer day will be February 16th.
I am so excited, but I am so unbelievably nervous. I think I am more nervous about this cycle than our last cycle. This time if it doesn't work, we are back to another fresh cycle and I am not sure when we could afford that for both emotional and financial reasons. There is a lot of pressure riding on those 4 little frozen snow babies.
So I am back to blogging and I am going to more active on the Bump again. I missed you all and I am looking forward to catching up.
Last year was a year of discovery, pain, standing strong, and being hopeful against all odds. This year I am praying for a year of hope, chances, grace, and victory. Good bye 2011, Here's to 2012!!
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