Thursday, June 23, 2011

AF loves Vacation =(

I do go on wonderful vacations, but if AF could let me go on one without her for once I would be really really really happy about that!

She isn't really here yet, but the cramps are telling me that vampire bitch is right on time to depart with me Saturday morning. The really big problem is that we are going to be on a boat with 16 people for a week and that is not very conducive to tampon disposal. F-U AF!!!!!!!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Knitting!

So once my biological clock started ticking, a lot of other weird things happened as well. I started to crave being domestic. I wanted to cook and bake and well... knit. These are not things I have ever been interested in doing before. I told myself that I would wait until I got pregnant and then let myself indulge, but when I learned that it may take a long time to ever get pregnant, I decided what the hell and I started learning. I plan on knitting a blanket for my baby while on bed-rest so that I will have something calming and hopeful to do during that time.

Here is my first knitting project! I wanted to knit a baby blanket for a friend who had struggled with IF and gotten pregnant after her first IUI - Here is what turned out:



Now the problem is the woman who I was knitting this for just had a miscarriage. So now what do I do with it. Part of me just wants to put it in a hope chest and keep it for my baby someday. Another part of me wants to keep it for her when she gets pregnant again, because I know she will. Another part of me wants to send it to her anyway, but I don't want to make this any more hurtful for her than it already is. 

All in all, I am really proud of my first project!

Facelift

I decided to give my blog a bit of a facelift. It's not because I didn't like the look, but because I am fickle that way! I decided it was like changing my blog's outfit! Only a few touches here and there, oh and a new name. The name now matches the web address. So welcome to the new design!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Great Poem

My amazing friend, Gregermis, who is also going through IF wrote this awesome poem and I just had to share it!



To those on CD1,
and all suffering from AF's malicious fun,

to those on oral and injectable meds,
and IVFers resting in their beds.

To minds stuck in an induced hormonal haze,
who's bank accounts have seen better days,

to those on breaks and natural cycles,
whose DH's miss their bicycles,

to monitoring appointments,
and BFFN disappointments.

When our bodies feel broken,
after doctor's diagnoses are spoken,

for OOP and OPKs,
and those fleeting hopeful days.

When using pre-seed to do the deed,
we remember all those poor sticks on which we have peed.

If you've achieved success only to suffer a loss,
remember that IF is a b*tch not the boss!

To feet in the stirrups with beautiful socks,
we watch our charts and curse our clocks.

When waiting for surgeries to heal,
And when sex starts to lose its appeal,

whether it's clomid + IUI,
or a nasty case of MFI,

our phantom little ones are waiting,
whilst we brave the needles we're hating,

so raise your glass of water or wine,
to that elusive little second line,

Drink your POM and eat your core,
We will beat IF and even the score!

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Reason #7

Reason #7 I love Mr. Scuba: After my all clear hysteroscopy he brought home a beautiful bouquet of flowers with an amazing card that said "You are beautiful inside and out". How amazing is he?!



Hysteroscopy = All Clear

I was so worried this was going to hurt like crazy - but it didn't and it was really cool! I got to look at my cervix, my uterus, and my fallopian tubes!! I think it was the lucky socks that helped.

Plus, the asshole RE was actually really really sweet! He even gave me a gyn dx for this procedure which saved me $440!!!