"the brave are simply those with the clearest vision of what is before them - glory and danger alike - and, notwithstanding, go out to meet it"
-Kate and leopold (bad movie, good quote)
So I figure it is time for an update. With 5 days to spare, my body finally cooperated and my period is here. Apparently my body, like me likes to wait to the last minute! So barring cysts and such at baseline we are on for this cycle and I start bcps in 2 days.
Is it strange that I'm not really excited this time? I want to be positive and up beat but truthfully I'm just scared. The closer we get to round 3 the closer we get to a lifetime of an empty ute. I just want to stop time and never let this shred of hope go. Of course I also know that the only way to change this is to keep putting one foot in front of the other one scary needle at a time. I am still scared but I have no choice but to go out to meet it.
Is it strange that I'm not really excited this time? I want to be positive and up beat but truthfully I'm just scared. The closer we get to round 3 the closer we get to a lifetime of an empty ute. I just want to stop time and never let this shred of hope go. Of course I also know that the only way to change this is to keep putting one foot in front of the other one scary needle at a time. I am still scared but I have no choice but to go out to meet it.
I totally understand what you're saying. But I'll be excited for you, OK? You just concentrate on that one foot in front of the other part. Deal?
ReplyDeleteI'm only on my 2nd but I feel completely different about the whole thing this time. Terrified. But I have to say - your bravery is an inspiration to all IF women.
ReplyDeleteIt's normal to be scared after a few unsuccessful cycles. You are amazing that you are being so brave! GL and lots of PPV's <3
ReplyDeleteYou girls are so sweet!
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