2 Scubababies on Board!

We just got home from our embryo transfer. It was a wonderful experience. We started out with the pre-transfer acupuncture treatment, then went to the doc for transfer. The thawed 3 embryos because 1 didn't make it. So we have one snowbaby left.

The transfer went very smoothly. There was no pain this time which was certainly not the case the first time around. Then we went back to the acupuncturist for the post-transfer treatment. Then home to rest for the next 2 days.

God, please please please, I am on my knees begging, please let these be our healthy happy take home babies!

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Share 2 must read blogs
1. http://if-journey.blogspot.com/
2. http://katiandjuice.blogspot.com/

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Share 7 things you love about your husband
1. He loves me
2. He cooks
3. He does laundry
4. He is a great kisser
5. He is incredibly supportive of me
6. He lets me be me
7. He can make me laugh so easily 
Share 7 random facts about you- or 7 of your favorite things- or 7 things you love about yourself
1. I love fireworks, I mean WAY more than any normal person should love fireworks!
2. I am really stubborn, I like to call it "persistence"
3. I love cats, and I love other people's dogs
4. I just recently started knitting and I LOVE it!
5. I am a super multi-tasker, I have to be doing multiple things at once even when I am "resting"
6. I am a Seattle Seahawks fan

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10-number game- think of your life and think about how the number relates to your life:
1. How many kitties I have
2. How many brothers I have
3. The number of times I have been to Hawaii
4. The number of sperm found on our first analysis which we found out on the 4th of February.  Also the number of embryos we have frozen. We have a weird thing with the number 4. 
5. The number of minutes it took me to come up with this answer
6. The number of times I typically hit the snooze button
7. The number of years I have been with my husband, including dating. 
8. The number of years I spent in college (undergrad and grad school)
9. The number of knitting projects I have completed
10. My bedtime
2-things you've learned through this IF journey or things you would tell someone who just started this IF journey
1. Whether you like it or not, you will learn to be patient. Try to embrace it. 
2. Make it a point to stay connected to your partner, you will need each other through this terrible time. 


Now follow the link in the picture above and link-up so we can learn about you!!!!! 

Awwwww

My wonderful husband left this for me this morning! What a great way to start the day!!!!

Strange

It is strange to think that if this were a regular IVF cycle,  I would be recovering from an egg retrieval right now. The frozen transfer process has been so low key and seems a lot easier on my body. I think that might be part of what is driving me nuts! There isn't nearly as much to actively do so the little victories along the way are fewer.

The past couple of days I have also been a lot more emotional about all of this. I cried in my office at work after talking to a nurse about the estrogen again. She was trying to reassure me and let me know that everything was fine, but I just got more and more upset until I started crying. I am trying so hard to keep from thinking about the what-ifs, but I don't know how I am going to get through another BFN. I am trying so hard to stay positive, but the closer I get, the harder it becomes.

Low Estrogen

The nurse just called and said my estrogen was low. They like to see it at 200 or more and mine was 86! She said not to worry (ya right!) and they would add a supplement and it should be fine. She said that my lining looked great, it was at exactly where it should be and forming the triple stripe, but I can't help but worry.

I asked her if there was somewhere I could put the patches so they absorbed better, and she said no, as long as they are not on the outside of my thighs. Well.. that is exactly where I have them! I was told anywhere on my body except my breasts. WTF?! She said they need to go where there is the most subcutaneous tissue. So since I started with fresh patches this morning, I scrapped them and put new ones on where she suggested (inner thighs and stomach). I am kind of upset that the first nurse told me anywhere on my body is fine when that isn't true! 

Anyway, she said they don't generally test for estrogen again but that they would if I wanted. What do you all think, should I test again or am I just being paranoid? I think I would feel better testing again. I just don't want them to thaw my little snowbabies for nothing!

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Happy Birthday Blog!

Celebrating our 1 Year IF Anniversary

1 year ago today we got the most gut-wrenching news of our lives. 1 year ago today I was a devastated ball of tears. 1 year ago today I didn't even know how to breathe.

It feels like we have traveled over a million miles in that year. We have come so far and learned so much. We have gone from high highs to the low lows on this crazy new roller-coaster that is our life right now. Yet amidst all the pain and anguish, we have grown so much in our relationship and gained strength in our resolve.

Today we are not going to mourn or cry, we are going to celebrate our anniversary. Thats right, celebrate. We are going to celebrate all we have become and we are going to celebrate the hope that we still have.

We are going to go skiing, eat a great restaurant, stay at a super cute B&B, and we are going to enjoy each other and all that we are blessed with.